Friday, April 30, 2004
Lazy is the word that I would like to describe myself. Yesterday purposely don't want to write blog becoz I'm feeling lazy kekeke...... So tired today...... today's customer is more than yesterday's about 10 times. I kept on packing and packing the counter until I can't even go toilet hehe.... I was so relieved when my partner came in the afternoon... I scream for help keke..... then she said yesterday when I left she's also lidat... I got nothing to say.... dot dot dot... Felt quite happy working there as the time can pass super fast..... although I always feel like sleeping...... How am I going to survive for another 15 days?? Hai.... Oh no tomorrow is Saturday.... I'm going to prepare for war....... war! war! lolx.... Got to go now.. play a bit of gunbound before I sleep kekeke.... Today's blog is the shortest of all... I think the next 15 days also kekeke... who knows maybe I won't write! SIAN AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
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11:23 PM
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
What a cold whether it is today... it's drizzling outside now. Went out with Regine and Ronald to catch a movie called "Hellboy". Quite a nice movie I should say.... quite funny and gross too. Some parts when the monster spit the sticky substance.... that was damn gross... lol. Lucky I changed my mind about not watching "Dawn of the dead". Don't really dare to watch horror show now. Oh ya... just now Regine agitated me again.... she said the cd casing I broke yesterday cost only about $6.90 outside... I heard my heart starting to crack into pieces.... I was soooooo..... hai..... sad..... nvm.....treat it as a lesson for me... =((((((
Tomorrow I shall start work already... 18 days... but I got one day off. Actually I can get 2 days off but nvm... work one more day can get extra money.. anyway I got nothing to do at home. Quite happy to work in Taka.... becoz there are more crowds there. More crowd means that I don't have to stand there looking and staring at people... becoz I'll be damn busy, and the time will pass very fast. It's always better to work in Taka than in Isetan Katong lol.... Feel quite nervous too... as if tomorrow is the first day I start work. Actually tomorrow I'll be working in Taka Square... and not in Taka store... I don't really know whether I can go out by main entrance? Or by back door... Dunno alot of things..... Nobody guide me... They think I'm god, they think I know everything..... Oh ya, haven got my March pay. Look at the date now... What date is it today? 28th April... Where is my March pay? I asked my merchandiser many times.. he said the boss lost my March punch card. My pay is on hold and he is sorry about that. I'm beginning to feel anxious... coz it's going to be May soon.... This is not going to happen to me. I'll make sure they pay!
Really very sian tomorrow start work. It's like today is the last day of my holiday and tomorrow the school will reopen lidat. Hai... lucky I only need to work for 6 hours... actually is 5 hours, coz I got 1 hour break. Got no friend there... at least I got lots of friends in Isetan and Taka store, but in Taka square, I know no one... That's so boring.... Hope to make some nice friend over there tomorrow.... Wah..... morning shift... 10am... Got to reach there at 9.40am, meaning I got to get up at 8am!!! This sucks.... I'm going to get Panda eye tomorrow... I'm going to start drinking coffee from tomorrow onwards....
Oh ya... the Journey to the west vcd I'm watching now is broadcasted on tv now. Got to finish watching it soon so that my mum can rent it to people. Sure got a lot of people ask for it one.... ok ok got to go... feeling sleepy too.... buai...
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9:10 PM
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
............................ What an unlucky day today................................. feeling very stupid today............................................ Know what? I went out with Regine today, from Bugis, to Suntec, to Marina Square.... Got nothing to do so went walk walk around. Regine asked me whether I wanted to go mini toon, so I went in with her. At first I choose to buy some candies from there. You know, those gummy candies which is charge by weight, the more heavier the most expensive. Then, when moving around in that shop, I saw a cd case, those common cd case which you press it and the case will move out. The colour was striking pink and very outstanding. Having an itchy hand, I went to press it, and the next thing I heard was a loud "thump", and the case dropped on the floor. That was embarrassing..... totally utterly embarrassing.... I apologised many time... Know what? The staff told me that it's spoilt and wanted me to pay..... It's $21.90!!! $21.90 for a lousy stuff! For a stupid case which will spoil after dropping on the floor! I asked them how come their stuff is so lousy.... once drop only then spoil. They only laugh.... nvm.... I pay.... It's my fault anyway.... I know it's an unlucky day for me today.... I seldom buy such an ex stuff for myself... My heart was broken into pieces after paying the $21.90! I gave up my candies too.. coz I feel so bankrupt after paying the money. So tempted to eat it just now....
Sigh..... I think it's not a good idea to put that thing so high up on the shelf, with nothing to support at the back. It's common sense... that's what Eric taught us in Human-Centred Design. You put a thing which can be pressed on the shelf so high up, it's natural that people will go press it. They shouldn't have left it so high up with nothing to support at the back! No brain is it? diaoz.... I think I'm not the first one who dropped it, just the unlucky one... coz they put a label stating that once it's dropped, consider sold. That was the only thing with the label.... so I assumed many people dropped it before... Lucky I didn't spend much money yesterday... or else I'll even feel more heart broken. Regine was teasing me the whole day..... tease and tease..... lucky Ronald and Brandon was not there... or else I'm dead meat! They'll tease me like hell!!! After paying for that thing, Regine and me went Burger King to have a bite. I don't know what happened to me today. Again, when I was lifting up the drink, I accidentally dropped it again... some drinks splashed onto Regine's shirt. I was... really...... laughing like hell!!!!! Regine was so so so speechless and went on laughing with me. She said she can't stand me..... She asked what happen to me today lol. She said today is not a good day for me to shop lol. Seriously I didn't do it on purpose lol... Just dunno what happen to me. Some time back I also almost dropped the drink in that Burger King. Today is not the first time. Maybe I'm not fated to go to Suntec Burger King lol.
Forget it.... money can earn back. So sad.... can't get over the $21.90. I want that cd casing out of my sight! My mum also tease me just now..... And said I was cheated coz she bought that cd casing for only $10 plus. Argggg...... Relax..relax..... Only my bf is willing to pay for me. but I rejected coz it's really my fault lor... So sad and I demanded he sing a song for me... And so he did.. becoz he's in the ktv with his camp mates just now. Feeling better now.... I shall get back to watch my vcd again... I'm going to kick that cd casing to one side now. Actually it's not totally spoilt.... it can be fixed.... so do that later... for the sake of not wasting my $21.90!!!!!
So unlucky, so embarrassing, so stupid, so lousy today.................
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9:19 PM
Wow! It's so late now.... Just finished checking my mails... chatted with my Sweden fren in msn just now. Too tired to chat with her so I just told her I'm going to sleep. Haha... but here I am writing my blog. =p
Went shopping with Elyn today... We went Orchard window shopping... didn't spend money today, except for transport. Almost bought a 3 quarter pants just now, coz I was thinking that I can wear it to the workshop next sem. However, after looking at the price I decided to forget it! Quite glad that I save money today hehe... Oh ya met my bf just now too. Bought alot of old chang kee snacks for him and his family. At last spend some money on food. Talking about it makes me so hungry now again.
Today I'm not going to play gunbound again. Going to watch vcd after writing this blog. A bit tired.... maybe watch one disc.... kekeke... Tomorrow Regine dated me to go Ikea walk walk. I asked Meiling and Ronald along too... Long time never go out together... Haven set the time yet, but I guess it's in the afternoon... coz we are all lazy pigs =p Finally can go anywhere I like! Yes I'm free!!!!! No more projects!!!
Oh ya.. Anne organised a steamboat bbq at Marina South this Thursday.... A pity I can't go coz I got to work. So sad.... the other time PID organised a bbq in downtown East I also didn't manage to go coz I was having a fever! Think I'm really not fated to go for PID gathering... sob sob... perhaps next sem I guess.... Perhaps perhaps perhaps.....Getting lazy now.... dun feel like typing anymore. Actually also nothing to say. So got to stop here and watch my vcd now... kekeke....
Posted on 26th April 2004 mid-nite kekeke....
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12:39 AM
Sunday, April 25, 2004
Didn't write blogs yesterday... coz I wasn't feeling well yesterday. Heart was beating very fast, and suddenly feel like vomitting. Been having that kind of feeling for some weeks.... And it's on and off. My bf brought me to see doctor, and the doctor said that I was over-stress haha... And asked whether is it due to work or what, den my bf told him it's maybe due to my projects, coz I was rushing my projects for the past few weeks. The doctor even asked me a funny questions.... he asked is it possible that I get pregnant? Lol what a question.... it's simply insulting my bf and me! I told him NO! Then he nodded his head and say that's gd! Haha that's the 2nd time ppl asked me that question.... The 1st time is when I went to check up before entering poly... While I was taking x-ray, ppl asked me that. Lol....
The doc gave me 2 medicine, one is take it whenever I feel like vomitting, and the other one is relieve tension. Think I'll keep it for some days... coz I dunno when I'll get this kind of feeling again keke. My mum reprimmanded me and say that she's not stressing me, and asked why stress myself.... people may laugh at me! Well.... she doesn't know... and never will.... I'm not stressing myself... it's just that I really need to finish my projects! All for the sake of not repeating and not wasting my time and money and get a cert! A diploma cert! All this for my future... She once told me to withdraw from this course if I really can't take it! But I won't... as I said... this is my passion... haha... blah blah bleah...... >.<
Listening to my new songs which I downloaded the day before yesterday. Now trying to find the new song "Ai Ni" by Cyndi Wang hehe.... A very nice and hmmm.... "cute" song... Last heard the song in my bf house.
Tend my mum shop with my bf today. Watched the new Journey to the west. Casted by alot of actors and actresses. I've said this before... After my projects, I'm going to watch the vcds till my com get blasted!!! Lol.. touch wood! I'll watch till I feel sleepy... then I'll go sleep.. kekekekeke....
Eh..... what the hell ? I'm feeling a bit hungry again... No wonder.... I only ate bee hoon for dinner just now... lolx.... lucky my bf gave me pringles... now I have the excuse to eat it already haha... Time to spoil myself.... I mean.. time to get unhealthy and get fat and blah blah blah..... ok got to go... =p
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11:28 PM
Friday, April 23, 2004
So free and nothing to do..... Today went back to school to collect HCD stuff. Didn't manage to get the grades..... only hear lecturer talking to us. I've learnt something today.... "Passion"... ya... this is it! this is what got me into design school. He told us to do 50 sketches during our 2 months holiday.... Initially I thought I'm not going to do this... but, Benny said, This is up to you. If you got the passion to do, you'll eventually do it. Ok I guess I shall do it during my holidays. Maybe I can't reach 50 sketches, but I'll do as much as I can. Maybe that will help in my designing next sem. I really hope to see improvement in my work. I did have the passion for design, but not 100%, coz I don't really see myself working hard on my projects. Only do for the sake of grades! The day before yesterday, I saw one of the junior in the workshop. I asked him, since you had finished your projects, why are you still in the workshop? He told me, it's not about whether he had finished the projects or not. It's about passion. That was his passion. I was amazed by what he told me. Ya, that's true..... different people have different passion. I started thinking, since I have the passion, why do my grades sucks? Is it because of lack of time or what? Maybe is because I only have the passion for art, and not design..... As I said earlier on, I wanted to go Visual Com, and not Product Industrial Design.... However, I've decided to focus on product Industrial design, and I really want to have more passion in this course. I'm not forcing myself to like this course, and neither did I say that I hate this course. I only wanted to put in more effort in this course. Since I've taken it, I should work hard for the sake of my future too... =)
Ok, enough of school work now! Hmmm...... Checked my email just now. My friend send me an email with those ghostly pics which suddenly pop out. At first I got the feeling that there will be those scary faces of ghost which will pop out, so I asked my god bro to check for me, coz he's in msn. He lied to me and said there weren't any scary stuff, but when I opened it, I saw a big scary face popping out suddenly with those scary sound too. I screamed very loudly with a bit of tears in my eyes... I was really shocked... My dad asked me what happened, I told him nothing. He thought I saw a cockroach.... lolx.... I really hate those emails and I had already told my friends not to send me those stupid mails..... I think I can forget reminding them..... I don't want to offend anyone.... Call me a timid.... but I really hate it very much! I've seen this type of mails alot of times... I scolded my god bro for a very long time. He only told me there are scary pics after I had finished checking it!
Still feeling very tired.... Eye black still there.... Many friends thought that design is so slack. Only draw draw draw...... I told them, this is not true.... especially our course. We had to "do" more than "draw".... We are physically and mentally tired, whereas they are only mentally tired. They only need to study for exams. We need to do tons and tons of research and make our things out. Got to go for presentation and critique. And the stupid FAST system is not working well for us. Maybe that's only suitable for other schools, but not design. We really hate the FAST system... People will only understand us if they get in our course... How I wish there are exams in our course... Our final critique is our exams... but that really sucks... I wish there were exams, rather than critiques. This year is good for us, but starting from next year, I think our lecturer will get tough on us. I've seen their critiques, especially the year 3..... That was really horrible and scary.... Well.... it's still a long way to go for me. I shall stop thinking so much now.
Still dunno what to do later... damn boring... Got to start working in taka on the 29th of April all the way till 16th of May... Sian.... after that I'm free!!!! hehehe... Got to go... tata!
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9:12 PM
Thursday, April 22, 2004
Finally! I managed to finish my projects! And now I really dunno what to do. Suddenly nothing to do! Not used to it. Yesterday didn't sleep at all... Doing project from 11.30pm in Elyn house all the way till 7.30am this morning. Being distracted by cockroaches at the corridor while spraying out things there. Wasted some time .. haha..... We are not the only one doing project over night! Damn shagged. Slept for only 1 hour, and after that go school to submit our projects. Saw alot of pandas in studio today.....
After submitting our projects, the lecturer call us to be back at 4pm to collect our grades and stuff. Elyn and me went Bugis for a walk. Got no mood to sleep although very tired. Met my bf for a while too.... When we went back to the studio, everybody was sleeping.... We waited for one hour for our grades and debrief. The lecturer actually told us to return tomorrow 3pm. That was so........ it's really a total waste of time for us! I thought I can get out of the school!!! I thought today is the last day in school.... And I've cleared my locker and stuff.... Who knows tomorrow must return to school again..... Ahhh....
Just woke up. Feeling very sick now. Those bored to death feeling. Reaction very slow now... Got a really deep eye black. Face super pale... can hardly open my eyes now. Why do we always have to ton night to finish our sculpture? Only the sculpture make me ton night. Terrible.... Someone by the name of...... really pissed me off! Told Lena about it! She agreed with me. He thought he's the lecturer.... he thought he's the one and only matured guys in the world. We are not kids! Why must he everytime tell us to get things done? We are not soldiers and he's not the commander! I know it's for our own good, but hey.... although you are much more older than us, our status are equal ok? We pay the same school fees.. got the same lecturer... same project... same studio.... I don't see Lena treating us like kids, although she and him are born in the same year... She's much much more friendlier than him! All of you should know which guy I'm referring to.... He's the one and only person we hated in this course! Stuck up!
Dad nagging at me to eat dinner now. The time is 10.55 now. Got no appetite! This few weeks really got no appetite to eat! Only wanted to drink coffee.... And I can stop drinking coffee now... maybe my appetite will come back from today onwards..... I've been forcing myself to finish every meal this few weeks! Yeah Yeah later I'm going to play gunbound. Nothing to do.... Tomorrow can go mum shop to borrow vcd too.... =p Gotta go eat now..... kekeke...
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10:31 PM
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
Phew..... Finished my wood project today. Just haven sort out everything yet. Yesterday wanted to take a good pic of my jig. My bro actually told me that he got the digital cam and usb port. However, when I wanted to use the usb, he told me he couldn't find it! I was so so so depressed and lost... dunno what to do. Just then, Ming Chung told me that the project had extended to Wed, which is tomorrow haha. I was so relieved. At least still got time to borrow from friend. I asked alot of people whether they can lend me their usb port. Coz I had already taken the pics and is very satisfied with it. However, some of them dun have digital cam, and some don't have the usb with them, some had different usb as mine. Lucky, my bro fren lend me hers. Got to know her today. Took her hp no. She's from Business school... but I dunno which course. First impression of her is that she's a very pretty lady. She taught me how to use her camera too. It's Sony cybershot. Super sharp and clear hehe... makes me got the urge to buy one too. She help me to send the pics to my email.... I was so thankful to her. I told my bro she's a very pretty lady, and I would be glad if she become my future sister-in-law =p Who knows.... my bro went to tell her what I told him. She sms me to tell me that my compliment made her day =) She also complimented that my wood jig is so nice and outstanding.... however... I told her... I bought it... and it's not made by me :x Lolx lolx.....
Did a terrible thing in studio today. I pour the black paint into the basin in our studio. Just den, one of the senior saw it and told me that I'm not supposed to do that, coz it's toxic... oh my god!!! I did rememeber that my lecturer told us that before. However, everyone did that too.... or else what is the basin doing in our studio? Especially those basin in the VSC studio..... They use paint more than we do. However, I saw the paint staining the basin. Felt so guilty... so I used a rag to clean and scrub it.... Dunno who's the one who threw the grass jelly into the basin too.. yucks.. it's so gross! I'm like the maid cleaning and scrubing the basin.. the big big long long basin!!! I swear I won't do it anymore.... Especially in front of so many people kekeke.... Elyn can't even stand to see me doing that, she said it's very gross and she ran away.. sob..... Mabeline even asked me to run away too hehe... but I told her I can't coz 3 of the senior saw it already... keke.... And I don't like to hear the attendant nagging and asking who's the one who did that haha....
Haiz.... finally parti up my stuff. Used super glue to stick my stuff. It even sticked on my palm.... Now my palm is getting shiny and hard and rough with the super gule on it. Tried very hard to scratch it away... still got some left though... it's so irritating!!!!
Tomorrow... comfirm plus guarantee chop that I'll sand seal, primer and spray my stuff! Tomorrow shall be the last day to complete my radio! And tomorrow nite I shall do my sketch, for Thursday presentation!
FInally feel that I can breathe a little.... less and less stress! Last project!!!! Go go go......!
Oh ya ya... did u people watch the news today? The collapsed or rather, the explosion of the Nicoll Highway? It was such a shocking and saddening news to me. The first thing my dad said to me when I went home is this news. It was so scary.... just like the terrorist attacking us lidat. 3 person missing... pray hard that they can find them now. Maybe now, ya right now! So sad to see their families crying, doubting whether they are still alive or not. Well... cherish every moment with your loved ones..... :)
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12:06 AM
Monday, April 19, 2004
Lol... changed my blogskin today.... Tired of the old one keke..... Hmmm... Beginning to slack again.... Yesterday never write blogs because I was rushing for my projects. Today submitted 3 projects. Wow.... such a relief! Very satisfied with my work today. Hope I also will be satisfied with my results. Drew a gun for my rendering. alot of people drew cars.... Mok say I'm violent! hump ya so what... kekeke... bully him just now again... For offending me keke... No la I very good one won't anyhow bully people.. *cough *cough.... =p
Yesterday opened vcd shop with my bf. It's like a party yesterday because my bf 4 fren came to visit as well as watch a bit of movie. Den Jeff and Ming Chung came to do project together. So stress yesterday.... So glad that my bf is going to share the shop with my mum, coz my mum other partner, she's so lousy.... got no patience to look after the shop and do good business. Lucky she's going to hand it over to my bf haha.... Next time we can do what we want and buy as many vcds as we like keke...
Today I shall complete wood jig with Elyn, then I'll have one project left! Oh man I'm looking forward for tomorrow. My HCD is finishing soon too... but.... haven sand sealer, haven primer.... haven choose colour!!! Erm but probably by tomorrow can finish... coz I'll be in the workshop whole day.... till 9pm hehe. Then I can concentrate on my sketch... Pray for everything to go well....
Later if got time I hope I can watch some vcd hehe... Oh ya yesterday my bro and I bought Sammi Cheng karaoke vcd. Wow there's 2 discs with 26 songs altogether, and guess the price? It's only $6.90!!! So cheap.... I bought it from TS sales... Sammi's song is sooooo nice... especially cantonese song..... keke.. hard to find in Singapore... Now also listening to her song while writing blogs keke. La la la.....
K k go do work already, the faster I finish the faster I can watch vcd hehe... Gd luck! =p
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10:27 PM
Friday, April 16, 2004
Feeling very low today.... cried in school today. Just becoz of a stupid thing. Ya, that's how I felt. Stupid! Not I want lor. Who want to cry in school? While I was crying, Seng Yong saw it and patted my head and asked if I was alright. So embarrassed..... Today he was just standing right in front of me while waiting for bus, and my mind was wandering about, and I didn't even notice him until he called my hp to tease me. Dunno what's wrong with me. Very vexed these few days. I went home before 5pm to take a nap. Haven finish my HCD yet. Hope I can finish before or on tuesday.
I am really feeling very low today.... like no battery lidat. Fading away....Hope I can finish my rendering today. I find that I really scared of alot of things. Scared history repeats itself, as a result, I don't dare to trust people anymore...... I'm more and more timid! I'm very very lost. So useless! I may look strong on the outside, but actually I'm very weak. I always look cheerful to alot of people, but in fact, only my god bro knows me the best. It's my life I must admit. I don't want to rely on him always, although he's the only one who can make me laugh happily, and tell me alot of things to console me. I hope I can stopped telling him everything, and try to stand up myself whenever I fall.
Feeling vexed about my bro thing also. Took a starhub line for him, signed a 2 years contract, and he didn't even come to collect the sim card from me. Will he pay for the subscription fees every month? If not, will I be sued? I really regret..... I shouldn't be so kind hearted in the first place. I really don't trust people anymore... I've lost faith....
And yesterday, I borrowed the carving tool.... which belongs to mok. I swear I didn't lost the tip, coz it's tightly screwed on that thing. He asked me today whether I've seen it, and blame that I didn't screw tightly. I told him, if I didn't screw it tight, the tip sure will fall when I operate it, but it didn't. I admit I feel bad losing the tip, but I really dunno whether I'm the one who lose it or him, coz he may dropped it when carrying the tools all the way from the workshop to studio. I told him I'll buy one tip to return him, coz I'm really very tired of arguing, and talking today. And he was the one who saved me by lending me his tools, so I really don't want to argue with him. However, he said no need, and asked me to treat him lunch. I stick out my tongue to him =p (Perhaps he didn't lost the tip, he only want to eat free lunch kekeke). Oh god I'm so bad...... bullying him since last sem till now hehe... Think I'll treat him eat one of these days...
After blogging, feel like playing 2 rounds of gunbound, coz got to warm up before doing my work hehe... tata.... And also waiting for my dear to call me... hope he'll call me....
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11:10 PM
Thursday, April 15, 2004
Wah... damn stress... didn't write blogs for the past 2 or 3 days.... Firstly is too busy with the projects, and secondly is becoz I think my com got problem. Especially with the internet explorer.... however, my msn is fine... strange... a bit sad though.... coz it's like I got virus on my com. I didn't download anything.... why got virus? Hai...
Told Elyn that once a person is in bad luck, every bad luck thing will fall on them all the way. I'm one of them. Today my fingers was stuck under the heavy steel clamp. It's so pain.... I was jumping up and down when I pulled out my fingers. And after that, knocked on the machine again! Elyn was laughing like hell..... There were a bit of blood, and my fingers became swollen right away.... Now it turned black.... I just used needles to poke it only, to let my blood flow.... To get rid of the poisonous thing. You never know the pain until you experience it yourself! God bro asked me to buy the... dunno what blah blah blah thingy to apply haha.... Lazy la.... let it heal itself. My deadlines for the 3 projects are pushed backwards again... lol.... yes I'm so glad. Now I dun have to rush till mad. Even got time to write blogs hehe...
A bit sad today..... injured my fingers.... so pain... even till now.... mind was wandering about just now.... or else I won't injured my fingers.... Feel like crying out loud now.... Sometimes I was wondering, what's so fun about internet games? Ya it's fun I agree.... but, why do people get addicted and hooked to it? Is it really that fun??????? Becoz of that my hp is so quiet today..... Oh my... what am I talking? I also dunno la.... Sad... Angry.... Only my god bro will know...
Feeling really damn sick lor.... Everyday go workshop. So bloody hot. Especially the weather nowadays... I'm sweating everyday in the workshop. Plus the noise and the stupid saw dust all over my face, my shirt, my jeans, and even my bag!!! Not to say that I hate that, actually it's quite fun, especially when we are finishing our work and when we are spraying it! It's just that everything doesn't go smoothly for me! Angry is becoz of that! Went out walk walk awhile, cool down den go back workshop do! More and more sick! More and more no appetite to eat! More and more restless..... More and more hot-tempered! Depression! I'm sick sick sick sick sick!!!!!! Damn sick! I need to calm down.... rest awhile first.... take a break.... Going berserk soon...
Tomorrow must at least try to sand seal my stuff... Though got time, but I want to concentrate more on other things.... I need to take a break now too.... I'm really mentally and physically tired!
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10:45 PM
Sunday, April 11, 2004
Time really passed very fast. Tomorrow will be Monday again. I'm so glad that our group had finished the Mat & P Plastic project. Really very glad... However, there are still 5 more projects to handle.... sob..... the most headache one is Mat & P Wood, as I really dunno how and what to do. I guess I'll have to take one step at a time. Tomorrow if everything goes well, and I get to finish my rendering, then I'll again have one less project to worry. Now I feel that HCD is also very headache, coz I only got 5 more days to complete it, can u imagine? Last sem is 2 weeks, and this sem is 5 days.... I'm going crazy..... tml nite I hope I can get the shape I want, den the following day I can proceed with my sand sealer thing, primer thing, spay and so on... Ahhh.... I'll try my best to do it tomorrow!!! I want to get the shape done by tomorrow!!! That's my aim.... hope I can reach my target.
Doing Space and Form plan just now, watching NKF also... that was so sick! The most touching scene is when He Yao Shan, you know, the City Harvest Pastor, got shot by the dart, that was what she wanted to "perform" for the NKF to draw fund. That was so painful and she leave a deep impression for me, although I really hate her (no offend to anyone who like her), just like I hate Fann Wong haha... And next is Sharon Au, when she kept "ouching" while "performing"..... I can feel the pain... my tears were almost dropping as it was indeed very touching. And for the rest of the programme, I didn't really watch as it was those boring opera.... blah blah.... haha.... Nvm, as long as people like it! Sometimes I really wonder are they sick! Mentally sick! What if something happen to them? The dart thing and the blade thing was so so so scary..... as well as the bees which stung Jack Neo... Well. I didn't really know whether he got stung by the bees... hehe.... But it was HORRIBLE man..... nvm... it's over... over.... let's forget it.
Ok.... I'm going to plan what I want to do for the next 8 days now... Got to stop blogging so much now... Cheers...... tata potato.... =p
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11:29 PM
Saturday, April 10, 2004
Damn hungry now...... nothing to eat.... Dun care! Got to finish my Mat & P recommendation by today... And I'll have one less project to handle. By Monday I shall finish my rendering in studio, then go and draw material for HCD. At nite go workshop start my stupid radio model. Ya that's what I planned.... hope I can follow my schedule hehe... The rest wait till I finish my Monday and Tuesday submission den say. I am very very super regret that I go and help my boss work tomorrow. Who asked me to be so soft-hearted. Actually I already told him I can't work for the 3 Sundays.... so why am I helping him tomorrow? It's his business if he got lack of staff, as I already told him 1 month ago rite? Just now Regine also say I can't always give in to them. Shit it's too late man~~~~
What a "fun" Saturday it is today.... didn't had my lunch today...... Only 5pm den I get to eat my so called lunch or dinner. Today chatted with my god bro for 1 hour while waiting for my group members in the studio. He is really making me mad. Kept teasing me, telling me lame jokes and did alot of stupid stuff. I didn't had a good laugh for very long..... very very long...... wanna thank him for that...... I hope he see this.... Think maybe tonite I'll have nightmare, coz my bf said that if you are too happy you'll get nightmares when you sleep. I hope not keke....
Went out with Regine after doing my project. It's been a long time since I went out with her and our sec sch gang. I hoped during the holidays, we can go out together, as nowadays, we are all so busy doing our own things. Wow! I finished my 450 grams of small biscuits... oh... what a great eater am I.... but I feel better now hehe. Ok.... as usual.... back to work! Tata =)
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11:26 PM
Friday, April 09, 2004
A sad day..... didn't sleep well last nite. Alot of things on my mind..... crap....all crap!!! Chatted with ling on msn last nite. I told her why I was sad... as well as some other things..... den she consoled me.... felt better, but still very sad. Dun wanna talk abt it anymore. I feel that everytime when I'm too stress, I'll go crazy.... mind all wander about.... got wild thoughts.... Sometimes really feel I got depression man.... Sometimes I really want somebody to talk to me. I'm not alone I know.... but, it seems that I'm alone.... very lost, with no one to guide me... I don't really know what the hell am I talking! Just heck care!!!! Depression acting up! Bro asked me not to think so much also.... ya ya ya.... I'm insane, I'm nuts! nutty! Peanuts!
Damn I really very sad leh.... haiz..... Ok ok stop it!!!!! Don't want to think about it anymore!!! Crying soon.... sob..... I'm so hopeless.... change topic.....
Today is a bright and sunny day.... went to work. Colleague bought me curry puff to eat, yummy! Ya... today saw alot of babies..... wow they are sooooooo cuteeeeee.... feel like carrying them! It's so happy to see so many cute babies around me. haha... One of my colleague is pregnant..... today den she know the news. Well.... felt happy for her. I'm afraid I won't have the chance to see her stomach grow bigger... coz.... I'm resigning soon.. Boss came down today.... I really dunno how to tell him that I want to quit! I know sooner or later I must tell him.. but... just can't bring myself to.....
Beginning to miss my dear again... hai... I hope it's December now..... so that he can ORD, so I can see him almost everyday... Feeling so tired now. Very restless nowadays... my colleague asked me to drink chicken essence, but I hate it! Hate the taste and smell.... I'll stick to my coffee..... but it's not always that effective. Feeling very sick now. Colleague also say my face very pale today.... Ask me to drink more tonic. Wahaaa.... wait long long.... I'm pale everyday... just like a zombie.... especially today... I can't afford to get sick during this critical period. I don't want to be like last sem, having high fever during my last submission, and groaning and grumbling in studio, wearing 4 layers of jackets... lolx.... can't forget that day man. Talking about it makes me feel more sick now. Die die die.... very giddy. Think I better stop blogging and go sleep now. Gotta go school on a fine Saturday... to chiong project ah..... :<
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11:35 PM
Thursday, April 08, 2004
As usual, late for poor Chow lesson... Surprisingly, I'm the last! haha.... lucky he still mark my attandance.... sweet old man.... Today's metal test is so.... erm.. how should I say? Should I say it's easy or what? Dunno.. somehow just feel that it's something I learnt in secondary school science. Some of the questions I anyhow "tikam" also correct! lolx... say liao got common sense is enough! haha.... Who knows maybe I fail lolx....=p Wah missed science man... especially physics!
After lecture I went back to studio to complete my VisLi stuff, submission date is today. I was rushing like hell man. Not becoz I haven finish it, it's just that I haven mount it all on the board. I wasted about $8.50 to buy the boards and stuff. And not even that, I walked up and down two times to the bkshop today... sian! Den I also nv eat my lunch today. Only bought burger to eat. Not enough for me... while I was cutting the board, my hand actually shiver haha..... den no choice, I asked Elyn to help me cut. Don't really know is it I'm afraid of pen knife that's why I shiver, or becoz I'm too hungry haha...
Today everyone was like so busy, especially the colour class and drawing Fund class. It's their submission date today. Lucky I didn't take these 2 elective haha. The studio was in a chaos man. I see Elyn so pitiful, so I offer to help her. I tot it only take some time to finish her work, but nope.... I actually helped her from day till the sun set lolx..... Well.... it's our duty to help each other in rite?
Played gunbound with my bf just now. So long never play already... Oh ya.... tml is Good Friday... must work..... Ahhh...... Well... dunno whether I got mention that I'm going to resign soon. Maybe after I finished my mission in taka during the holidays 1st. After that, I'm going to help my mum in her shop. Although her pay is lesser, but it's more relaxed and free.... However, I really dunno how to tell them that I want to resign. They are so good to me..... will miss them too.... haiz.... for my own gd, I shall be more thick skinned den....
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11:06 PM
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
Waha... Wasted half day again. Today watched 3 "dolphin at the bay" vcd. Really cried alot watching that show. Sooooo touching.... *weep *weep. Haiz.... I really dunno how to start my work... So many things to do! I just saw my god bro in msn. I told him I swear from now on I want to concentrate on my projects. Know what he say? He said he try hard to believe me. Diaoz.... Actually I also told him I try hard to swear lolx.... Oh ya, he told me that Gary won a Mr ITE runner up today. Well... feel happy for him. Yesterday Gary just sms to tell me that I'm in his prayer, and asked me to take care of myself. And today he had won a Mr ITE runner up heez.... Long time never contact him already. Still remember during sec sch days, he is always there for me whenever I needed a listening ear. Really glad to have him. And I am really very touched for all the things he had done for me. Oh well... do not misunderstood anything between us, coz we are mainly purely bestfriends only. We went through thick and thin together. We had laughter and joy together, and also heard each other cry before. So, we are like buddies. Well... anyway he is living very well now. Hope one day I can intro my bf to him, to tell him that I am living very well now too. Hmmm... suddenly miss sec sch so much.... especially the days with my classmates.
I realised that my buttocks are on my seat the whole day.... lolx..... the only time I get up is when I bath and eat. Actually I wanted to start on my Space and Form plan, but stupid me, I left my A1 paper in my studio... So I just have to do other project 1st. Hmmm... ya... I can finish off my journal 1st. Finished everything for VisLi.... One project lesser now. Yesterday I saw my house key.... it doesn't belong to me, but I asked everyone they said they dunno who does it belong to, so I took it hehez..... no more worries.. I can go home as and when I like now. And save money to duplicate one.
Downloaded few songs today too. Some of them are oldies. So happy I could get them. Don't you think that oldies song are more emotional than todays song? hmmm.... that's my point of view. Yeah.... that's all I wanna say for today. As usual, back to work! Missed the " dolphin at the bay" drama. I must control myself!!!! Tell myself holiday I can watch till rot!!! ok ok lets get to work now... byez.... :((((
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9:53 PM
Tuesday, April 06, 2004
Gotta crack my brain to do Space and form plan today. I showed Rachna and she said mine can be better. Ok.... I guess I'll have to improve on it again. Today she showed us some examples of her students work.... wow.... it's so nice and fantastic! Can I do something like that? I'm afraid not. Sometimes I really wonder have I chosen the right course.... In my mind, I always wanted to go Visual Communication. It's my fault! I didn't know there are interview in the 1st place. And when I knew it, the interview is over! Haiz.... now I've taken Product Industrial Design, I guess I'll have to admit my fate. Who says Product Industrial is bad? There are not many intake in this course, but however, I feel that in the future, competitors will be less. There are advantages and disadvantages of course! Actually, I feel that PID is quite fun. We can design our own products to let people use. What's wrong with that? I just don't understand why there are so few intakes in this course. It's so fun actually, but of course, there are lot's of projects to handle too.
Oh and one more thing, Rachna pushed back the deadlines for our final model submission. I felt a sense of relieve. Really very glad to have such an understanding lecturer, although she's not from my course. Feel like drinking coffee now, to keep me awake. Tomorrow there'll be no drafting class. I guess the lecturer must have let us do out own projects and cancel all lectures. I hope I can do something by today as well as tomorrow. Ya, I got to finish my VisLi map. I've been struggling for the map for soooooooo long..... This Thursday will be the submission date. No more extension of deadlines....
Downloaded alot of songs today. Listening to it now. I got 108 songs in total lol.... gotta change the arrangement of songs now, or else I always listen to the first few songs above, and I'll never reach the bottom song. I'll get tired of it too! =p Couldn't get some of the songs I wanted... so sad.... why lidat? hehe...
Borrowed vcds from my mum. It's call "At The Dolphin Bay". It's a chinese series. Chinese is called "Hai Tun Wan Lian Ren". I know I got no time to watch it, but just in case I get bored doing my work, I can watch it if I want hehe.... It's a touching story, although I haven finish watching it. It's recommended by me... go watch it if you can.... heez...
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11:09 PM
Monday, April 05, 2004
Feeling so tired today.... watching the channel u variety show now. It's called Jacky!!! Hmmm... tml there's no rendering class. But too bad.... got Space and form. So sian... Got to go school just for the sake of attandance. Don't think there will be lesson tml, becoz we only need to do our final model. Think there'll be consultation only. So waste time! Maybe go school for half hours to consult and take attandance only.
A lot of people had already drawn materials for the HCD. I haven even show Eric my sketch. Actually there's no lecture today. Last min then say :(... if I know I won't be going to school today. I envy my friends, coz tomorrow they don't have to go school, but some of my friends and I have to go back!
Met my bf today, he got nites off! So we went walk walk around, and we went supermarket. He bought me some snacks. Hmmm.... I ate alot just now, coz I was so hungry all of a sudden hehe... Nothing much to write, still very sad I lost my key. Very reluctant to duplicate one now hehe.... it's money matters. unless my parents are willing to pay for me, or I'll knock and ring the door bell till they go berserk hehe...
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11:29 PM
Sunday, April 04, 2004
Haiz..... lost my key today. So sad.... Dunno where I left it. Blame it on my itchy hand. I actually took out 1 key from my whole bunch of keys as it was too heavy. Sob sob.... I've never lost such an important thing often. If I were to duplicate it again, it may cost me about $13+. And not all the shop duplicate that kind of key. Too tired to think about that anymore. Tomorrow then say!
Today's tomb sweeping was fun. I was almost left alone at home due to my laziness. I can't wake up as I only slept for 1 and a half hours. In the end, they all left without me. It was only until they closed the door then I realised they left without me. I felt so bad sudddenly. However, my 2nd bro called and asked whether I was going. I said I wanted but it's too late as all of them had already left. Hehe, due to my surprise, all of them are still downstairs packing things, so I just brushed my teeth and changed, after that I rushed down to them. While I was in the car, I felt so refresh hehe...
After sweeping tomb, I was so tired.... but when I went home, I just bath and didn't sleep. I went to my bf house and his parents bought me breakfast. After eating I just dozed off hehe... my bf had a great time playing games as I wasn't there to disturb hehe... Well.. managed to sleep for 2 hours only. After that I helped my mum look after her shop again.... Sian.... tired until slept in shop too. Missed my fav movie. cast by Stephen Chow... (If I am rite).
Wow... I never felt so tired before.... ok, I'm going to sleep now.... I realised that these few days I didn't do much work. Ok, starting from tomorrow I shall take initiative to continue my work hehe... work hard! strive hard!
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10:43 PM
Saturday, April 03, 2004
Getting more and more slack now. Let's see how many projects are there left for me to do. Hmmm....
1. HCD radio model (Gotta go workshop by this week)
2. Space and Form final model (haven even draw out the plan yet)
3. Space and Form learning journal (finishing soon...)
4. A1 Rendering (haven decide what to render yet)
5. Mat & P Plastic (haven started!!!)
6. Mat & P Wood (haven even buy the jig!)
7. 16 Autocad drawings (borrowed the software from Ronald. Can do it at home)
8. VisLi Map
It may look like there are so little work, but let me tell you, These projects are impossible to finish within a day or a week. Stress man... Lucky the CDS is over, as well as VisLi. I can concentrate more on other work den.
Yesterday my CDS lecturer send us a mail, calling us to do the survey/feedback form. Wahaaa.... I typed what I really wanted to say and suggest. No harm anyway... Feel so relieve.... And when it came to comments, I wrote: I hope that the lecturer would stop interupting when we are presenting, as when she interupt, People may be distracted and may forget what they wanted to say. Wahaaa.... rude right? Actually I was stating the facts. Don't you think so? It's so rude to interupt!
Well well.... today's business is not too bad.... After one auntie came to replace me, I went to Bedok with my bf. It's so crowded today.... We went to lots of vcds shop to see whether there are any new and cheap movies hehe. Oh ya, today, a new hp just came out. It's the Nokia 6230, my bf dream phone. It cost about $678. Hmmm.... alot of function I should say. Seem attractive to me. However, dun think I can afford it. So I should stop dreaming!!! I can't even afford 6610.
Going tomb sweeping at 4am tml morning. Don't feel like sleeping today. Or else I can't wake up. Don't know why I love to go tomb sweeping so much. People may say I'm psyco, but I just love it. Haha... Maybe is becoz my whole family will be going too, and I love family gathering lolx.... And I love to see all those clothes and stuff made from papers. Amazing rite? Always wondering my granpa and grandma wearing it. And look at those cars, hp and passports etc made from papers... aren't they cute? I sound like a psyco now.... :x
Hmmm.... write alot today. I must tell myself not to sleep. Hehe....
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10:08 PM
Friday, April 02, 2004
So happy today... Know what? I told my mum that my bf is going to accompany me to look after her shop. She cooked lunch and dinner for us. She didn't purposely cook for him, but since I told her, she just divide the share with him. I was so happy..... My mum actually know that I got a bf, but she was angry not becoz I got bf, but becoz I nv tell her in the 1st place. And she never mention his name in front of me.... neither do I. Today, I was so brave to tell her that. I was really really happy.... It's like she started to accept him already.... She even tell me to give the last drumstick to him, coz it's so embarrassing that she cook so little..... and so I ate vegetables and he ate the drumstick... but he gave me some of coz lol....
We spent the whole day in shop watching vcds... business not very good today..... feeling so tired today as I woke up quite early today. I went to my work place to pass my colleague my punch card. I was so blur... I forgot to leave it in my work place during the last Sunday of March... So I just went to my work place to pass it to them as my merchandiser will be collecting it today. Chat quite long with them... lol... can chat freely as I'm not working.
Nothing more to write..... playing gunbound with my bf and his friends soon. Finished my VisLi journal today.... so happy.... but still got no ideas for the map. I think that was the most challenging assignment for VisLi. The rest I still can cope.... but not the map.
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10:53 PM
Thursday, April 01, 2004
Yes! Today can rest again... Tomorrow there'll be no lecture again. Hmmm...... after todays lecture, I went to watch The Eye2 with Elyn and my bf. It was exciting.... I dare to watch it all..... it's less scary than the Japanese and Korean horror movies hehe. I was really shocked by some parts haha... especially when the ghost hit the photo frame. It was so sudden and unexpected. Next is when the ghost hide under the table... wahhh... thinking of it makes me so scared now haha... ok ok change topic.
Hmmm.... after that Elyn and me must return to school for that stupid boring Global..... hai... for the sake of attendance only. I dragged my bf along haha... Lucky today we only watched a terrorist video, and nothing else. I think the lecturer got nothing better to do also. In total I watched 2 movies today lol...
After that my bf send me home. Played many rounds of gunbound with him as well as our friends, It was fun, but I felt that I dragged the whole team down as I was so lousy hehehe.... Today I won't be sleeping early.... gotta buck up, do my work liao.... cannot always play hehe.... And I went to change the blog time too... I never realise I set wrongly the time earlier on.... hehe
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11:43 PM
(Wednesday, 31th March)
Today is a stress-free day, becoz I got no lesson in school today, and I need not go for the talk today too, as it is not compulsory.... I went to my bf house to do my assignment and also watch vcds together. Feel no stress when I'm with him.
Tomorrow must wake up early again... got Mat & P. Chow's lesson cannot be late, or we'll be marked late. However, we are all used to being late lol.... poor Chow..... I hope that there'll be no more projects by Chow... pls.... we already got 2 for Mat & P. Hope he'll spare us.... Just like last sem when he know that we got lots of projects to do and he spare us one of his project. And yes! Tomorrow's Global lecture will be the last!!! Looking forward to it!!! :)
Cannot write anymore... too tired.... let's hope tml I won't be late. Nites.... ZzzzzzZzzzzz.....
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12:08 AM
