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Friday, December 29, 2006
I am so pissed....... Some people are just so idiot. If you don't know anything just shut your mouth. You think design nice ok already? Don't you know that your design must be nice, at the same time, safe for the kids n everyone to use? Idiot. Talk so much, talk alot.... talk talk talk, dunno anything.... I follow your drawing so close lor. And your drawings got so much mistake I never tell you only. Think you are the expert? OH PLS. You want it to be done asap? WAIT LONG LONG.... After my holiday I'll see my mood, whether I want to let you install first! HERM! I hate you.
Yes, I would very much like to tell the above to THAT designer. She's such an idiot. Not that I want to say people until lidat.... But... I just don't want to elaborate our conversation today. Very sick of it, and very sian when I think of her. ROARRRR....
Spent half day doing her things today.. I very scared my workers will make a mistake. My production told me 2 workers make mistake already. So sian lor... Wait all the naggings come to me again. Haiz.... Then today must go factory check on the things that my workers did. Then very funny, I go check thing, worker teach me how to check hahaha... Coz today I'm supposed to check one table they made. I measure from the wrong angle... But Yong teach me... I'm just so happy that everyday, I'm learning new things... Haha... Happy working there, but I hate some customers .. haha......
Today I got very dark eye ring. Never had enough sleep yesterday. Not to worry, tomorrow I will wake up super late hahah.... Love holidays..... Hope time past slower starting from now till 2nd Jan hahaha....
Tomorrow is x'mas celebration with Jun, Ling, Yu, Ron and Brandon. So long never see them already. Haha... wonder will we bicker again tomorrow just becoz of exchanging pressie hahahaha....
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10:11 PM
Thursday, December 28, 2006
"Shut uppppppppp.... My dumb dumb wants to talk to you".... Hahaha..... Watched "Night at the museum" today with kel, jh and ww. Very funny show.... Laughed non stop... Recommend everyone to watch and have a good laugh haha...
Today as usual at work... Now it feels like everyday, I just get up, go work, do that bloody project, and handle all sucking calls from some idiots, then maybe go out and have dinner with kel or friends, then go home sleep, and next day wake up same thing again.... Oh my god when can I end that project? It's really taking very much of my time lor.... Arggghhh.... I hope I can finish it by tomorrow..... Really hope that interior designer can approve my work. She said she spend alot of time doing it, how about me? And the standard of her work sucks lor... Not that I want to comment about her, I think she has more experience than me, but, she dun organise her work properly, and she don't even have the exact measurement, and want me to follow her design a close as 100%. How to do it man?? Told her many times liao... she die die want me to follow... I don't care anymore... I just send the drawings for her to approve, then, send all down for my workers to do, heck care liaoz.... Pls see the final thing before you reject my drawings ok dumb dumb. My guys are more experience than you are, as they fabricate the work, unlike you, you only see 2D drawings ok. Kaoz. I hope everything turn out well tomorrow. It's the last day before my 4 days holiday.... ahhhh....
Very sian leh... whole brain is work work work.... can't have a peace of mind lor... Even sleep also dream of work. Haiz.... Stress.... Just give me 4 days break peacefully plsssssssss..... Haiz....
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11:52 PM
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Wah... It's a damn tiring day today. SO many work to do! Tomorrow worst... Drawings and projects are piling up on my desk. I can't even breathe today. When it's time to knock off, I still din know.... I'm really stressed. Today George also stress. When he came back, both of us can't communicate at all. He dun understand what I'm talking and I dun understand what he is talking. It's like the wire got disconnected. Both of us were laughing all the way as we know we are both stress haha... Then today also kept binging on food. haiz.
Firstly, workers give me problem, secondly customer give me problems, thirdly I got to rush the project, the Interior Designer from that company give me problem... Damn sian lor today. Haiz. I am so afraid to think of tomorrow... Maybe got to OT till 7 or 8pm... I can see that... Or even later lor... Haiz..... ARGGGHHHHH... 30th December faster come....
Eric called me today to do freelance work, but I can't take it anymore... I'm overloaded with work... So I rejected... so sad lor... If not can earn some allowance again... Haiz... I told him I can intro friend to him, but he dun wan, coz he say he got some other designer to help him liao... Then nvm lor.. If not can intro them too. Hehe...
I delayed my driving to half hours later, which is 7pm, but still, I could not rush to the lesson as I really can't leave the office. Then my manager offered me a ride to work. It was raining today.... Lucky he bring me to driving centre, or I can't reach there in half an hours time haha.... Today drive from Ubi to Machpherson to Kallang pudding and then to Geylang haha... So happy I got more and more new places to drive kekeke.... But I hate driving in rainy days.
Whoa getting sleepy in rainy days.. Why can't i sleep longer in rainy days? Haiz...
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10:45 PM
Monday, December 25, 2006
Firstly, let me wish all readers a very MERRY CHRISTMAS! Hope you all enjoy yourself today hehe....
Well yesterday was fun... Firstly, woke up and do work (that's not included in "Fun"). I wanted to rush all my work before x'mas, so I did till night time, coz I also got nap a while hahaha... Then finally I finished everything... Then went out at 9.30pm to Chinatown ktv as I'm meeting my bf and company to celebrate x'mas. They sang till 4am.. then we went to eat porriage at the most famous "Chang Cheng" porriage coffee shop..... Singing session was fun... Fun looking at Calvyn and Eddie sing. Though I din sing much... But there's someone out there who kept distracting me, coz she is damn crazy and talkertive till kel and me can't stand her. She KISSED me many times lor.... and I kept telling her pls your bf is there, I'm not him. Then she say I'm her girlfriend... So damn stun lor .... Then she go around hugging every guy though her bf is there... Then kel hide behind me lol........ So funny ah... Then there's some party poppers and whistle given by the ktv... Then we played with it... Then Eddie also brought log cake for us to eat... He said it's made by his sis... I dunno... Coz I saw the marriott hotel box... nvm can eat can already....Haha... OK la so overall it's still fun... Just that I can't stand HER! Can't imagine why jx can stand her... She talked from 9pm to 5am... NON-STOP. Kaoz. And kept hugging and kissing me... OH PLS. diaoz. Not as if I'm so damn close to her... I dun mind close girlfriend kissing me, but NOT HER. Haha....
Very very sleepy... today din do much things... Today morning slept at 6am at kel's house, then woke up at 10am feeling refresh, then ate lunch at kel's house, and then both of us went back to sleep again till 5pm, then went out to eat with jh and ww. Haha.... Then came home... one day gone... Work for another 4 days and I can have 4 days off again ho ho ho.... Waiting for 30th Dec to come... so happy haha...
Well overall, it's a fun x'mas! Hope every year more and more fun haha... Tataz.. I'm sleepy zzzz
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11:29 PM
Sunday, December 24, 2006
So many days din blog again... Recently super busy at work. Quite frustrated with the customers. I know customer is always right, but some are just so idiotic lor... I never blew my temper with customer, but sometimes I really can't stand it, feel like giving them a tite tite slap. Few days ago got 2 customer make me damn fed up n angry, but I bear with it. Sooner or later I'll die of heart attack man. Then recently got to handle one project of this 3 storey terrace house. Last min close the deal, and so fast want to fabricate and install. What the hell lor.... Make me chiong till dunno like what. Used 3 days to do finish all. Well not really all... Today is Saturday, I worked till 5pm. Actually I can finish it and go, but I am too hungry as I din had my lunch, so I brought some home to do... I think I took 4 days to finish it lor. Stupid man... And my salesman tot I'm genius can do so fast... I don't need spend x'mas liao lor?
Well... Actually my company people are all workholic. Saturday all can OT till evening, Sunday my salesman still meet up with customer, x'mas eve also... omg... Compare to them, I only OT few hours complain so much hahaha.... But I'm real tired... George also say my project hard to handle... But he cant' save me as he is stressed too... Both of us kept binging on food in the office to de-stress lol... I'm gonna buy more snacks to office. Growing fatter!
So happy boss is employing another draftsmen to save me and George as we are really overwhelmed with work. Both of us were relieved lor really... Can't take it anymore.... Boss want me to concentrate on Designing... Then next time those chim chim drawings can throw to the draftsmen already. Today, one interviewee came to interview, but I dun like him, but I think boss want to employ him... Hahaha... dunno la see how it goes. I can choose my husband but I cannot choose my colleague. Hee...
Today went to watch death note 2 with kel and company. Think maybe I got brain washed as I see the comic before I watch the movie, so it's not so exciting to me as compared to part 1. Eh but ok la though got some changes in the story, but it's still nice... =)
Mum not in Singapore till Jan. I'm turning wild hahaha... Today came home at 3am after the movie, then tml I'm going to ktv with kel and company till 4am, then go kel house sleep kekeke... Will tell dad I'm going chalet as it's x'mas. Yea... Hope everything goes well....
Today Ww also treat us eat at Tao's restaurant. I think I like their service, very good, though some waiter and waitresses are not local, I think they are all well trained. They are so nice, the head told us if we dun like the food can change for us, he also asked whether we want more dessert, he can give us some... so nice of him... where to find such good service restaurant?? Hee... Think the service charge is worth it. I do feel that if this company has good service, people will remember them, and kept praising them. Why is it not all Singaporeans can do it??? Sad ....
Blog alot liao lor.... coz few days din blog ma haha... Ok I'm tired.. got to tuck in soon... tomorrow wake up and do my project again... sianz......
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3:05 AM
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Today very big rain. Initally it was just drizzling, but then I asked Jun to go out. So we went out, and the rain was so damn big. She wanted to meet me at taka, so I walked up to the escalator, thinking that I can walked to taka from outside, who knows the shelter is filled by sooooooooooo many people walking from all directions, and the line isn't moving AT ALL... then no choice I took out my umbrealla and walked outside with no people at all, only a few with umbreallas. Then I was so soaking wet... the rain was horrible man.... Haha lucky the rest of the day Jun and me was in indoor. Then Jun told me Heatwave got sales, I went in and see, and I saw the sandals that since poly days I fell in love with.... usual price $29.90, I dun bare to buy during poly days, but there's a sales today, it's $19.90 lor... But still I tahan and din buy... Then after the whole shopping, I decided to go back and buy, who knows far east Heatwave dun have, then must go back Lucky Plaza buy, but as we walked along CK Tang, there's a fire there... Fire in the rainy days... Then everyone stood there to kpo, Jun and I also kpo there, then saw reporters asking the crowd something lor... then after that we walked off to other bus stop to take bus, and I can't buy the sandals... sad... but it's ok, treat as I've saved money today hehe... Got fate I'll go buy again. I also saw helen at taka today. Avoided her... Nearly knocked onto her while my bag brushes across her hahaha... I ran away as fast as I could... She's the scariest lecturer that I'll ever forget haha.
Haiz recently always waste money lor.... Doing rebonding, buy phone, buy this and that. X'mas coming soon also.... Must saved money... Broke this month... Nvm CNY get back my money from relative (Hong Bao!!!) LOL..... And I hope I can get bonus... At least give me a month bonus la plsssss.... Boss I know you are the best! Pls boss.... hahaha...
Oh ya, today Jun gave me a very touching x'mas card. I think it's the most touching card I've ever received haha... Thanks jun! I love you. haha....
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11:23 PM
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Just returned from Sentosa.... Very tiring today. Lucky it didn't rain haha... But it's so hot and squeezy as it's weekend today. Very sick of some people in Singapore. So damn rude, no manners at all... love to cut queue, love to push people, dunno how to say sorry. Here's a link to a blog which shows all the ugly side of Singaporean. I think it's damn true. Click here.
Haiz sometimes I feel it's really a weird feeling among us. I dunno can we still work or not. I don't have that feeling anymore. Everything has changed.... I'm feeling so lonely now. I am like a talkertive gal with a wooden block. Everyday I'm talking to a wooden block. I wonder is that wooden block sick of all my talkings? Everytime when I talked to wooden block, I only heard replys like "yes, ok, ic, very good".... That's all... ya I know I'm sickening.... DAMN. I'm trying very hard to work it out... Really trying very hard... So I tried talking more.... But, it's still the same old thing. Who can understand me? I don't mind noisy people, I'm just afraid of quiet people who don't speak at all. Hai.... Save me from the misery please...... I'm so tired.... So sicked of it... Yet I don't know what to do now.... sianz...
I'm unhappy........
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11:32 PM
Friday, December 15, 2006
kkkkk I blog liao ok???? hahaha.... So many days nv blog coz busy ma... Sometimes also lazy la kekeke...
Yesterday was my colleague's birthday. The day before, boss told me that he had reserved seats at Jack's Place to celebrate her birthday. Then surprisingly, everyone turned up from our office hahaha... We were soooo surprised. Well of course ma it's her birthday lor. Then after we finished our main course, boss told the waitress that the cake is ready to serve, then a while later we heard the music changed to happy birthday song, we were turning around to see whose birthday also, coz we dun have the cake yet, then awhile later we saw the cake from far, then delivered to our table... Then boss say, oh so that music is for my colleague one hahah.. We all laughed. My colleague almost cried out. When we went back to the office, she told me its the first time people celebrate her birthday for her. She was very happy and touched haha... (Saw tears sparkling in her eyes). I gave her a new bracelet that I made. She like it and asked me to wear it for her. I saw her wearing it today too hehe... So happy... din eat much for dinner yesterday as the lunch was so damn heavy lor... Haaaa....
I feel my boss is really a very nice guy. Extinct in this world already. He really care about all his staff. No one told him about my colleague's birthday, but he remembered. Just like my 21st birthday, he also know about it when I haven tell him haha... But I felt so guilty, I know his birthday (But he din know I know), and I forgotten about it... HAI.. Bad employee... got to wait till next year, which is in November... Aiyo... Hopfully I'm still there la... can celebrate his birthday for him hehe... yea I'll be there... I'll be..........
So today I finally went rebonding after work. I've been hoping very long to rebond le... So sucks lor my hair previously. The hairdresser told me the person who cut my hair previously used the wrong method to cut. I knew it! sucks... She said the way that person cut my hair looks like she just graduated.... Argghhh.. ya lor I agree... Now my fringe looks so ugly because of her, the hairdresser who rebond my hair also cannot save my fringe. Haiz. It's ok, I'll wait for it to grow then hehe...
Yes its weekend , yeaaaaa.... tomorrow I'll be bringing the visitor monks from sri lanka to sentosa for a tour kekeke.... Yea tomorrow is a day to enjoy yea yea yeaaaaa!!! Haha...
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10:26 PM
Monday, December 11, 2006
Hahaha finally I've recovered. Free from the pain! The medicine is superb. However, I've already told my boss that I'll be taking MC today. That's good also as firstly I can take more rest to recover 100% and also to skip one day from work keke....And I thought I can sleep all the way to 12pm today, but George called me at 10am asking about my computer password at office. And so I told him no I got no password haha... And he asked about my condition and so I told him lor... And he asked me to have a good rest. Keee....
Yesterday then I went to see the doc. Lucky my dear came to accompany me and bring me to see doc as all my family members are not free and not at home. Actually sat my bro wan to bring me to see doc, but I refused as I totally got no strength. Then yesterday I can't stand it anymore. Although I no longer vomit, but I started to have diarrhoea. And my fever shot up to 38.3 degrees. Then yesterday went to see doc, he asked how many times I got diarrhoea, I was like erm... ah... erm... then he said ok nvm and laught. N he asked me how many times you vomit? I said 7. And his eyes open very big and said 7? Then I said yes, 7 times at one shot, and his eyes open bigger and said "WOW".... hahaha... so funny la... so he gave me some tablets for high fever, some for stopping diarrhoea, some for pain and some to stop vomitting. And I took a one day MC hehehe....
After I took the "to stop diarrohea" medicine, immediately my diarrhoea stopped. Then I took 2 "for fever" medicine, and I went to sleep, when I woke up, my fever had lowered down from 38.3 degrees to 35.9 degrees... the medicine is superb...
Hehe... I feel so good now... Tomorrow got to work again, sianz... so today I must cherish my time.... Wasted 2 weekends. Damn! This weekend I'm going to rebond my hair with Elyn lalalaa.... Can't stand my hair anymore... Hate it... Like auntie lor... sucks... Haha
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2:21 PM
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Argggghhhhhh... I'm sick again. Food poisoning.... THANKS TO THE MEAT BUN. I'LL NEVER EAT MEAT BUN FOREVER IN MY LIFE. Bro said he got diarrhoea yesterday, and today when i woke up, I feel like vomitting, but I bear with it and went to work, I wanted to vomit out in the office, but I bear with it as I'm scared... I hate the feeling of vomitting... After work, I went to expo as there's buddhist relics exhibition there..... I am supposed to tend the stall till 9.30pm, but I went there for lunch, and went home. Mum took over me. I slept after bathing, and when I woke up, I vomitted 7 times in a row.. Damn... I feel so scared... so lost.... Then after I threw up, I felt so light, Im flying........ But now I feel so feverish. Maybe tomorrow go see docter. Got to spend money again. Wish I could take MC... hehe...
Bro told me sometimes, they will sell the buns which are placed there for 2-3 weeks already. DAMN LOR... it's gross man....... And my bro asked me to buy for him still... SHit man.. He didn't tell me this stall is gross lor... After we 2 ate then he told me... Diaoz......
Yeah enough of complaining..... I had slept too much, now I lie on bed I can't sleep anymore... I dunno wat to do, I feel so weak... Haiz... If only kel can accompany me.... Too bad he is working now.... Sianz...
Yes and I bought my dream phone, pink colour one... sony ericsson z610i hehehe... I love it I love it. So damn cool.... Argghhhh... Dun wanna blog anymore... VERY VERY SIAN LE... think I'll lie on bed again... zzz PLS make me sleep till tomorrow morning and recover soon... Well but I hope to get MC on monday lol... kkeke.......
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8:16 PM
Thursday, December 07, 2006
I'm so happy so so happy... Today big bro called me and congratulate me... I asked him why? He said I'm going to be auntie again... Yeah my sister in law is pregnant!!! We had been waiting for so long... I'm gonna be an auntie again! Yipee.... Well this time I hope I can have a nephew, coz I already got 2 nieces haha... Wonder how naughty is baby boy....
Today after work, went to the temple. The monk from Japan came... He brought us around Japan when we were there... but this time they only came for 4 days, these 4 days I'm unable to join them due to work and some other stuff... Haiz.... But met them today, so I chatted with them for a while... This Saturday Expo got some Buddhist exhibition..... If anyone is going to the expo this saturday, pls look around for me as I believe I'll be there... Doing what I also dunno... Haiz...
Oh yea... I got a new dream phone now... It's Sony Ericsson Z610i. I love it... Love the design and function. Asked my fren who own it, she said it's not a bad phone, just that the camera is 2 mega pixel... Well I dun ask for much. I have a camera anyway! AHHH I want that phone! Too bad my contract will only end next year March. Hai gotta ask my bro to get that phone for me as his contract had ended hehe.... Waiting for him to come back now... And next year he will be using my contract to buy his phone haha... We exchange... Bo liaoz...
I was wondering how come I blog so often now haha... Maybe because my work load not so much anymore, and nowadays after work, I went home straight away. keke.... I'm waiting for x'mas... I want holiday!!!!
Nothing more to type. Kitty's gonna eat some supper b4 she sleep as pony had bought some supper for her, and pony is staying over nite at kitty's house.....
Fullstop.
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11:22 PM
Kitty is in love with Pony... Not Daniel...
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12:48 AM
Woo hoooo... Finally things settled between pony and kitty. Recently they got too much problem la... Very sianz. Ok lets start all over again.... Kitty wish to forget everything and start afresh.
Today is really a funny day. Been avoiding many customers of mine. Very scared of them. Especially the ah singh... Make my manager go all the way from Bedok to Yishun just to see a small thingy... N my manager "thank" me for that. Ah Singh gave my manager the thing to wrap up his head. Really so funny lorrrrr... hahaha.... Manager got sabo by me... I hope I can have a peaceful December... This December really got alot of weird people! Sianz one....... WHEN CAN MY BOSS HIRE ANOTHER ADMIN TO HELP ME? REALLY HATE TAKING UP PHONE CALLSSSSS..... ZZZZZ....
Arghhhhh so hungry.... Going to eat some snack before I go to sleep hehez.... tata.....
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12:32 AM
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Today about 5.30am, BZ finally sms and told me she deliver her first baby already. I am so happy for her. Then today, I cancelled my driving lesson and went to see her in the hospital. Hehe... Told instructor I am sick haha... But really sick leh.. Yeah this week no driving!! haha... Met Bi Jun at the hospital.... JAN LOR DUN WAN TO GO WITH ME HERM! haha.... So when we arrived, I saw BZ husband walked pass me. He dunno nv see us or wat la... I just eh, then he also eh, then he walked away quickly... BLEAH! Then saw Lili, Amanda and siti in the hospital. 5 of us were transfering the baby to and forth lol... So funny. We used the term "Transfer". BZ's baby Xavier got so much hair... so black also haha... SO ADORABLE!!
After listening to what BZ had gone through during the delivery, I felt so scared to labour next time. But I think I still want to have baby... It's just so happy when you see your baby came out of your stomach. The feeling is so nice. So touched, so warmth. AHHH baby is so adorable!
Oh yeah..... Just saw the news that boardcast the x'mas tree that I designed haha... So damn happy and satisfying.... Wonder if my boss saw the news... Will ask him tomorrow haha... this project is designed by 2 of us. But credit goes to all the workers who make my design successful hehe...
Today also damn tired. All because of the vivo customer again. Why she so wat one lor... want this want that. Hello Friday is installation already, still wanna change... How my workers do?? She make me OT AGAIN LOR... Till 6.30pm lor... And Bi Jun was waiting me till siao lorrrrrr... And she kept calling my hp, I purposely say very loud, I say "sorry sorry I'm coming!" Just to let my manager hear, want him to help me... But he busy leh... Then he laugh at me when I put down the phone, and I was running like mad in the office. ARgghhhh... Hope Friday faster come. Hate that vivo customer. Let me see her I wanna act like a customer of hers and REVENGE back! Arggghhhh....
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10:26 PM
Monday, December 04, 2006
Boring~~~~~
Today so busy at work. So sucks lor the vivo customer, change alot of things, confirm already want change panel again. Gate not symmetrical, some more above is round instead of square. Stupid lor so hard to draw, still wanna change. Make me work till 6.30pm, but still haven finish. Tomorrow continue.
Very sianz la... these few days not enough sleep. Tomorrow driving. Sian... more and more hate driving... Coz always got scolding hahaha....
Today forgot to buy breakfast for tomorrow. This morning cannot get up again, then never eat breakfast. Gastric getting more and more obvious. But really nothing to eat leh... and no time... I always get up late. Haiz... Got to start planning for my breakfast weekly le... gastric is killing me...
"Sometimes it seems no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?"
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9:00 PM
Today is a terrible day. Had a bad tiff with kel. I make everyone so unhappy and troublesome. I really feel bad about it. But I really cannot control myself. I dunno why I wanna make everyone so unhappy. Haiz.. I can't stand myself... send me to the mental hospital...
Today jx and me had a good talk about kel. Well, all the things I told him, he also got nothing to comment on. Maybe he also agree with me, and he understand why I am angry. But he told me he'll talk to kel, but in the end I repeat the same old thing to kel again, as he came to look for me. Waste my saliver, got no voice after all the nagging. Been a bad day today. However, after today, after what I really told kel my feelings, I felt so so so much lighter Maybe because I've let out all my feelings. Hehe...
Bought a 50 pieces CD-R today. Got a very very big lesson already. That is, you must back up your files once in a while, if not you'll die if your hard disk crash. I hate to format com. Argghhh... So now I'm backing up everything hahah...
Well got to sleep soon. been crying too much lately... so tired....tata....
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12:35 AM
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Haiz... Sometimes it really makes me so upset lor... Sometimes P promise me thing then nv keep promise, very sickening one lor. I dunno why P become lidat. The feeling sucks really. I took one whole day to think of it. Saddening... I am really sad. This is not what I want. I can't describe my feelings now... who can I talk to? SUCKS ENTIRELY. I am tired... I wish it could start all over again... Haiz too late. Something is wrong, but P doesn't realise it. Talk to P also no use, P dun understand. P dun understand me more and more.
I love my family, but sometimes the things they do I really can't take it. I wanted to tell her not to do that thing, but I dunno how to phrase it, wait she angry me how? She'll show me a black face everyday. But if I dun tell, she'll ruin my future lor. It's half ruin now. I am so sick of it. Not only her, even him also. But I trust him, so I won't say a single thing. But HE dun trust HIM, so what should I do? I'm like a sandwich. I hate it. I wish I could let go of everything and stop bothering. This is not what I want. However, I'll find a way to talk to her. I promise........ Haiz..... I wish I am still a kid.
Maybe I'm the sickening person after all... well I sucks too.....
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12:43 PM
I am so pissed....... Some people are just so idiot. If you don't know anything just shut your mouth. You think design nice ok already? Don't you know that your design must be nice, at the same time, safe for the kids n everyone to use? Idiot. Talk so much, talk alot.... talk talk talk, dunno anything.... I follow your drawing so close lor. And your drawings got so much mistake I never tell you only. Think you are the expert? OH PLS. You want it to be done asap? WAIT LONG LONG.... After my holiday I'll see my mood, whether I want to let you install first! HERM! I hate you.
Yes, I would very much like to tell the above to THAT designer. She's such an idiot. Not that I want to say people until lidat.... But... I just don't want to elaborate our conversation today. Very sick of it, and very sian when I think of her. ROARRRR....
Spent half day doing her things today.. I very scared my workers will make a mistake. My production told me 2 workers make mistake already. So sian lor... Wait all the naggings come to me again. Haiz.... Then today must go factory check on the things that my workers did. Then very funny, I go check thing, worker teach me how to check hahaha... Coz today I'm supposed to check one table they made. I measure from the wrong angle... But Yong teach me... I'm just so happy that everyday, I'm learning new things... Haha... Happy working there, but I hate some customers .. haha......
Today I got very dark eye ring. Never had enough sleep yesterday. Not to worry, tomorrow I will wake up super late hahah.... Love holidays..... Hope time past slower starting from now till 2nd Jan hahaha....
Tomorrow is x'mas celebration with Jun, Ling, Yu, Ron and Brandon. So long never see them already. Haha... wonder will we bicker again tomorrow just becoz of exchanging pressie hahahaha....
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10:11 PM
Thursday, December 28, 2006
"Shut uppppppppp.... My dumb dumb wants to talk to you".... Hahaha..... Watched "Night at the museum" today with kel, jh and ww. Very funny show.... Laughed non stop... Recommend everyone to watch and have a good laugh haha...
Today as usual at work... Now it feels like everyday, I just get up, go work, do that bloody project, and handle all sucking calls from some idiots, then maybe go out and have dinner with kel or friends, then go home sleep, and next day wake up same thing again.... Oh my god when can I end that project? It's really taking very much of my time lor.... Arggghhh.... I hope I can finish it by tomorrow..... Really hope that interior designer can approve my work. She said she spend alot of time doing it, how about me? And the standard of her work sucks lor... Not that I want to comment about her, I think she has more experience than me, but, she dun organise her work properly, and she don't even have the exact measurement, and want me to follow her design a close as 100%. How to do it man?? Told her many times liao... she die die want me to follow... I don't care anymore... I just send the drawings for her to approve, then, send all down for my workers to do, heck care liaoz.... Pls see the final thing before you reject my drawings ok dumb dumb. My guys are more experience than you are, as they fabricate the work, unlike you, you only see 2D drawings ok. Kaoz. I hope everything turn out well tomorrow. It's the last day before my 4 days holiday.... ahhhh....
Very sian leh... whole brain is work work work.... can't have a peace of mind lor... Even sleep also dream of work. Haiz.... Stress.... Just give me 4 days break peacefully plsssssssss..... Haiz....
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11:52 PM
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Wah... It's a damn tiring day today. SO many work to do! Tomorrow worst... Drawings and projects are piling up on my desk. I can't even breathe today. When it's time to knock off, I still din know.... I'm really stressed. Today George also stress. When he came back, both of us can't communicate at all. He dun understand what I'm talking and I dun understand what he is talking. It's like the wire got disconnected. Both of us were laughing all the way as we know we are both stress haha... Then today also kept binging on food. haiz.
Firstly, workers give me problem, secondly customer give me problems, thirdly I got to rush the project, the Interior Designer from that company give me problem... Damn sian lor today. Haiz. I am so afraid to think of tomorrow... Maybe got to OT till 7 or 8pm... I can see that... Or even later lor... Haiz..... ARGGGHHHHH... 30th December faster come....
Eric called me today to do freelance work, but I can't take it anymore... I'm overloaded with work... So I rejected... so sad lor... If not can earn some allowance again... Haiz... I told him I can intro friend to him, but he dun wan, coz he say he got some other designer to help him liao... Then nvm lor.. If not can intro them too. Hehe...
I delayed my driving to half hours later, which is 7pm, but still, I could not rush to the lesson as I really can't leave the office. Then my manager offered me a ride to work. It was raining today.... Lucky he bring me to driving centre, or I can't reach there in half an hours time haha.... Today drive from Ubi to Machpherson to Kallang pudding and then to Geylang haha... So happy I got more and more new places to drive kekeke.... But I hate driving in rainy days.
Whoa getting sleepy in rainy days.. Why can't i sleep longer in rainy days? Haiz...
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10:45 PM
Monday, December 25, 2006
Firstly, let me wish all readers a very MERRY CHRISTMAS! Hope you all enjoy yourself today hehe....
Well yesterday was fun... Firstly, woke up and do work (that's not included in "Fun"). I wanted to rush all my work before x'mas, so I did till night time, coz I also got nap a while hahaha... Then finally I finished everything... Then went out at 9.30pm to Chinatown ktv as I'm meeting my bf and company to celebrate x'mas. They sang till 4am.. then we went to eat porriage at the most famous "Chang Cheng" porriage coffee shop..... Singing session was fun... Fun looking at Calvyn and Eddie sing. Though I din sing much... But there's someone out there who kept distracting me, coz she is damn crazy and talkertive till kel and me can't stand her. She KISSED me many times lor.... and I kept telling her pls your bf is there, I'm not him. Then she say I'm her girlfriend... So damn stun lor .... Then she go around hugging every guy though her bf is there... Then kel hide behind me lol........ So funny ah... Then there's some party poppers and whistle given by the ktv... Then we played with it... Then Eddie also brought log cake for us to eat... He said it's made by his sis... I dunno... Coz I saw the marriott hotel box... nvm can eat can already....Haha... OK la so overall it's still fun... Just that I can't stand HER! Can't imagine why jx can stand her... She talked from 9pm to 5am... NON-STOP. Kaoz. And kept hugging and kissing me... OH PLS. diaoz. Not as if I'm so damn close to her... I dun mind close girlfriend kissing me, but NOT HER. Haha....
Very very sleepy... today din do much things... Today morning slept at 6am at kel's house, then woke up at 10am feeling refresh, then ate lunch at kel's house, and then both of us went back to sleep again till 5pm, then went out to eat with jh and ww. Haha.... Then came home... one day gone... Work for another 4 days and I can have 4 days off again ho ho ho.... Waiting for 30th Dec to come... so happy haha...
Well overall, it's a fun x'mas! Hope every year more and more fun haha... Tataz.. I'm sleepy zzzz
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11:29 PM
Sunday, December 24, 2006
So many days din blog again... Recently super busy at work. Quite frustrated with the customers. I know customer is always right, but some are just so idiotic lor... I never blew my temper with customer, but sometimes I really can't stand it, feel like giving them a tite tite slap. Few days ago got 2 customer make me damn fed up n angry, but I bear with it. Sooner or later I'll die of heart attack man. Then recently got to handle one project of this 3 storey terrace house. Last min close the deal, and so fast want to fabricate and install. What the hell lor.... Make me chiong till dunno like what. Used 3 days to do finish all. Well not really all... Today is Saturday, I worked till 5pm. Actually I can finish it and go, but I am too hungry as I din had my lunch, so I brought some home to do... I think I took 4 days to finish it lor. Stupid man... And my salesman tot I'm genius can do so fast... I don't need spend x'mas liao lor?
Well... Actually my company people are all workholic. Saturday all can OT till evening, Sunday my salesman still meet up with customer, x'mas eve also... omg... Compare to them, I only OT few hours complain so much hahaha.... But I'm real tired... George also say my project hard to handle... But he cant' save me as he is stressed too... Both of us kept binging on food in the office to de-stress lol... I'm gonna buy more snacks to office. Growing fatter!
So happy boss is employing another draftsmen to save me and George as we are really overwhelmed with work. Both of us were relieved lor really... Can't take it anymore.... Boss want me to concentrate on Designing... Then next time those chim chim drawings can throw to the draftsmen already. Today, one interviewee came to interview, but I dun like him, but I think boss want to employ him... Hahaha... dunno la see how it goes. I can choose my husband but I cannot choose my colleague. Hee...
Today went to watch death note 2 with kel and company. Think maybe I got brain washed as I see the comic before I watch the movie, so it's not so exciting to me as compared to part 1. Eh but ok la though got some changes in the story, but it's still nice... =)
Mum not in Singapore till Jan. I'm turning wild hahaha... Today came home at 3am after the movie, then tml I'm going to ktv with kel and company till 4am, then go kel house sleep kekeke... Will tell dad I'm going chalet as it's x'mas. Yea... Hope everything goes well....
Today Ww also treat us eat at Tao's restaurant. I think I like their service, very good, though some waiter and waitresses are not local, I think they are all well trained. They are so nice, the head told us if we dun like the food can change for us, he also asked whether we want more dessert, he can give us some... so nice of him... where to find such good service restaurant?? Hee... Think the service charge is worth it. I do feel that if this company has good service, people will remember them, and kept praising them. Why is it not all Singaporeans can do it??? Sad ....
Blog alot liao lor.... coz few days din blog ma haha... Ok I'm tired.. got to tuck in soon... tomorrow wake up and do my project again... sianz......
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3:05 AM
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Today very big rain. Initally it was just drizzling, but then I asked Jun to go out. So we went out, and the rain was so damn big. She wanted to meet me at taka, so I walked up to the escalator, thinking that I can walked to taka from outside, who knows the shelter is filled by sooooooooooo many people walking from all directions, and the line isn't moving AT ALL... then no choice I took out my umbrealla and walked outside with no people at all, only a few with umbreallas. Then I was so soaking wet... the rain was horrible man.... Haha lucky the rest of the day Jun and me was in indoor. Then Jun told me Heatwave got sales, I went in and see, and I saw the sandals that since poly days I fell in love with.... usual price $29.90, I dun bare to buy during poly days, but there's a sales today, it's $19.90 lor... But still I tahan and din buy... Then after the whole shopping, I decided to go back and buy, who knows far east Heatwave dun have, then must go back Lucky Plaza buy, but as we walked along CK Tang, there's a fire there... Fire in the rainy days... Then everyone stood there to kpo, Jun and I also kpo there, then saw reporters asking the crowd something lor... then after that we walked off to other bus stop to take bus, and I can't buy the sandals... sad... but it's ok, treat as I've saved money today hehe... Got fate I'll go buy again. I also saw helen at taka today. Avoided her... Nearly knocked onto her while my bag brushes across her hahaha... I ran away as fast as I could... She's the scariest lecturer that I'll ever forget haha.
Haiz recently always waste money lor.... Doing rebonding, buy phone, buy this and that. X'mas coming soon also.... Must saved money... Broke this month... Nvm CNY get back my money from relative (Hong Bao!!!) LOL..... And I hope I can get bonus... At least give me a month bonus la plsssss.... Boss I know you are the best! Pls boss.... hahaha...
Oh ya, today Jun gave me a very touching x'mas card. I think it's the most touching card I've ever received haha... Thanks jun! I love you. haha....
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11:23 PM
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Just returned from Sentosa.... Very tiring today. Lucky it didn't rain haha... But it's so hot and squeezy as it's weekend today. Very sick of some people in Singapore. So damn rude, no manners at all... love to cut queue, love to push people, dunno how to say sorry. Here's a link to a blog which shows all the ugly side of Singaporean. I think it's damn true. Click here.
Haiz sometimes I feel it's really a weird feeling among us. I dunno can we still work or not. I don't have that feeling anymore. Everything has changed.... I'm feeling so lonely now. I am like a talkertive gal with a wooden block. Everyday I'm talking to a wooden block. I wonder is that wooden block sick of all my talkings? Everytime when I talked to wooden block, I only heard replys like "yes, ok, ic, very good".... That's all... ya I know I'm sickening.... DAMN. I'm trying very hard to work it out... Really trying very hard... So I tried talking more.... But, it's still the same old thing. Who can understand me? I don't mind noisy people, I'm just afraid of quiet people who don't speak at all. Hai.... Save me from the misery please...... I'm so tired.... So sicked of it... Yet I don't know what to do now.... sianz...
I'm unhappy........
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11:32 PM
Friday, December 15, 2006
kkkkk I blog liao ok???? hahaha.... So many days nv blog coz busy ma... Sometimes also lazy la kekeke...
Yesterday was my colleague's birthday. The day before, boss told me that he had reserved seats at Jack's Place to celebrate her birthday. Then surprisingly, everyone turned up from our office hahaha... We were soooo surprised. Well of course ma it's her birthday lor. Then after we finished our main course, boss told the waitress that the cake is ready to serve, then a while later we heard the music changed to happy birthday song, we were turning around to see whose birthday also, coz we dun have the cake yet, then awhile later we saw the cake from far, then delivered to our table... Then boss say, oh so that music is for my colleague one hahah.. We all laughed. My colleague almost cried out. When we went back to the office, she told me its the first time people celebrate her birthday for her. She was very happy and touched haha... (Saw tears sparkling in her eyes). I gave her a new bracelet that I made. She like it and asked me to wear it for her. I saw her wearing it today too hehe... So happy... din eat much for dinner yesterday as the lunch was so damn heavy lor... Haaaa....
I feel my boss is really a very nice guy. Extinct in this world already. He really care about all his staff. No one told him about my colleague's birthday, but he remembered. Just like my 21st birthday, he also know about it when I haven tell him haha... But I felt so guilty, I know his birthday (But he din know I know), and I forgotten about it... HAI.. Bad employee... got to wait till next year, which is in November... Aiyo... Hopfully I'm still there la... can celebrate his birthday for him hehe... yea I'll be there... I'll be..........
So today I finally went rebonding after work. I've been hoping very long to rebond le... So sucks lor my hair previously. The hairdresser told me the person who cut my hair previously used the wrong method to cut. I knew it! sucks... She said the way that person cut my hair looks like she just graduated.... Argghhh.. ya lor I agree... Now my fringe looks so ugly because of her, the hairdresser who rebond my hair also cannot save my fringe. Haiz. It's ok, I'll wait for it to grow then hehe...
Yes its weekend , yeaaaaa.... tomorrow I'll be bringing the visitor monks from sri lanka to sentosa for a tour kekeke.... Yea tomorrow is a day to enjoy yea yea yeaaaaa!!! Haha...
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10:26 PM
Monday, December 11, 2006
Hahaha finally I've recovered. Free from the pain! The medicine is superb. However, I've already told my boss that I'll be taking MC today. That's good also as firstly I can take more rest to recover 100% and also to skip one day from work keke....And I thought I can sleep all the way to 12pm today, but George called me at 10am asking about my computer password at office. And so I told him no I got no password haha... And he asked about my condition and so I told him lor... And he asked me to have a good rest. Keee....
Yesterday then I went to see the doc. Lucky my dear came to accompany me and bring me to see doc as all my family members are not free and not at home. Actually sat my bro wan to bring me to see doc, but I refused as I totally got no strength. Then yesterday I can't stand it anymore. Although I no longer vomit, but I started to have diarrhoea. And my fever shot up to 38.3 degrees. Then yesterday went to see doc, he asked how many times I got diarrhoea, I was like erm... ah... erm... then he said ok nvm and laught. N he asked me how many times you vomit? I said 7. And his eyes open very big and said 7? Then I said yes, 7 times at one shot, and his eyes open bigger and said "WOW".... hahaha... so funny la... so he gave me some tablets for high fever, some for stopping diarrhoea, some for pain and some to stop vomitting. And I took a one day MC hehehe....
After I took the "to stop diarrohea" medicine, immediately my diarrhoea stopped. Then I took 2 "for fever" medicine, and I went to sleep, when I woke up, my fever had lowered down from 38.3 degrees to 35.9 degrees... the medicine is superb...
Hehe... I feel so good now... Tomorrow got to work again, sianz... so today I must cherish my time.... Wasted 2 weekends. Damn! This weekend I'm going to rebond my hair with Elyn lalalaa.... Can't stand my hair anymore... Hate it... Like auntie lor... sucks... Haha
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2:21 PM
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Argggghhhhhh... I'm sick again. Food poisoning.... THANKS TO THE MEAT BUN. I'LL NEVER EAT MEAT BUN FOREVER IN MY LIFE. Bro said he got diarrhoea yesterday, and today when i woke up, I feel like vomitting, but I bear with it and went to work, I wanted to vomit out in the office, but I bear with it as I'm scared... I hate the feeling of vomitting... After work, I went to expo as there's buddhist relics exhibition there..... I am supposed to tend the stall till 9.30pm, but I went there for lunch, and went home. Mum took over me. I slept after bathing, and when I woke up, I vomitted 7 times in a row.. Damn... I feel so scared... so lost.... Then after I threw up, I felt so light, Im flying........ But now I feel so feverish. Maybe tomorrow go see docter. Got to spend money again. Wish I could take MC... hehe...
Bro told me sometimes, they will sell the buns which are placed there for 2-3 weeks already. DAMN LOR... it's gross man....... And my bro asked me to buy for him still... SHit man.. He didn't tell me this stall is gross lor... After we 2 ate then he told me... Diaoz......
Yeah enough of complaining..... I had slept too much, now I lie on bed I can't sleep anymore... I dunno wat to do, I feel so weak... Haiz... If only kel can accompany me.... Too bad he is working now.... Sianz...
Yes and I bought my dream phone, pink colour one... sony ericsson z610i hehehe... I love it I love it. So damn cool.... Argghhhh... Dun wanna blog anymore... VERY VERY SIAN LE... think I'll lie on bed again... zzz PLS make me sleep till tomorrow morning and recover soon... Well but I hope to get MC on monday lol... kkeke.......
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8:16 PM
Thursday, December 07, 2006
I'm so happy so so happy... Today big bro called me and congratulate me... I asked him why? He said I'm going to be auntie again... Yeah my sister in law is pregnant!!! We had been waiting for so long... I'm gonna be an auntie again! Yipee.... Well this time I hope I can have a nephew, coz I already got 2 nieces haha... Wonder how naughty is baby boy....
Today after work, went to the temple. The monk from Japan came... He brought us around Japan when we were there... but this time they only came for 4 days, these 4 days I'm unable to join them due to work and some other stuff... Haiz.... But met them today, so I chatted with them for a while... This Saturday Expo got some Buddhist exhibition..... If anyone is going to the expo this saturday, pls look around for me as I believe I'll be there... Doing what I also dunno... Haiz...
Oh yea... I got a new dream phone now... It's Sony Ericsson Z610i. I love it... Love the design and function. Asked my fren who own it, she said it's not a bad phone, just that the camera is 2 mega pixel... Well I dun ask for much. I have a camera anyway! AHHH I want that phone! Too bad my contract will only end next year March. Hai gotta ask my bro to get that phone for me as his contract had ended hehe.... Waiting for him to come back now... And next year he will be using my contract to buy his phone haha... We exchange... Bo liaoz...
I was wondering how come I blog so often now haha... Maybe because my work load not so much anymore, and nowadays after work, I went home straight away. keke.... I'm waiting for x'mas... I want holiday!!!!
Nothing more to type. Kitty's gonna eat some supper b4 she sleep as pony had bought some supper for her, and pony is staying over nite at kitty's house.....
Fullstop.
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11:22 PM
Kitty is in love with Pony... Not Daniel...
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12:48 AM
Woo hoooo... Finally things settled between pony and kitty. Recently they got too much problem la... Very sianz. Ok lets start all over again.... Kitty wish to forget everything and start afresh.
Today is really a funny day. Been avoiding many customers of mine. Very scared of them. Especially the ah singh... Make my manager go all the way from Bedok to Yishun just to see a small thingy... N my manager "thank" me for that. Ah Singh gave my manager the thing to wrap up his head. Really so funny lorrrrr... hahaha.... Manager got sabo by me... I hope I can have a peaceful December... This December really got alot of weird people! Sianz one....... WHEN CAN MY BOSS HIRE ANOTHER ADMIN TO HELP ME? REALLY HATE TAKING UP PHONE CALLSSSSS..... ZZZZZ....
Arghhhhh so hungry.... Going to eat some snack before I go to sleep hehez.... tata.....
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12:32 AM
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Today about 5.30am, BZ finally sms and told me she deliver her first baby already. I am so happy for her. Then today, I cancelled my driving lesson and went to see her in the hospital. Hehe... Told instructor I am sick haha... But really sick leh.. Yeah this week no driving!! haha... Met Bi Jun at the hospital.... JAN LOR DUN WAN TO GO WITH ME HERM! haha.... So when we arrived, I saw BZ husband walked pass me. He dunno nv see us or wat la... I just eh, then he also eh, then he walked away quickly... BLEAH! Then saw Lili, Amanda and siti in the hospital. 5 of us were transfering the baby to and forth lol... So funny. We used the term "Transfer". BZ's baby Xavier got so much hair... so black also haha... SO ADORABLE!!
After listening to what BZ had gone through during the delivery, I felt so scared to labour next time. But I think I still want to have baby... It's just so happy when you see your baby came out of your stomach. The feeling is so nice. So touched, so warmth. AHHH baby is so adorable!
Oh yeah..... Just saw the news that boardcast the x'mas tree that I designed haha... So damn happy and satisfying.... Wonder if my boss saw the news... Will ask him tomorrow haha... this project is designed by 2 of us. But credit goes to all the workers who make my design successful hehe...
Today also damn tired. All because of the vivo customer again. Why she so wat one lor... want this want that. Hello Friday is installation already, still wanna change... How my workers do?? She make me OT AGAIN LOR... Till 6.30pm lor... And Bi Jun was waiting me till siao lorrrrrr... And she kept calling my hp, I purposely say very loud, I say "sorry sorry I'm coming!" Just to let my manager hear, want him to help me... But he busy leh... Then he laugh at me when I put down the phone, and I was running like mad in the office. ARgghhhh... Hope Friday faster come. Hate that vivo customer. Let me see her I wanna act like a customer of hers and REVENGE back! Arggghhhh....
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10:26 PM
Monday, December 04, 2006
Boring~~~~~
Today so busy at work. So sucks lor the vivo customer, change alot of things, confirm already want change panel again. Gate not symmetrical, some more above is round instead of square. Stupid lor so hard to draw, still wanna change. Make me work till 6.30pm, but still haven finish. Tomorrow continue.
Very sianz la... these few days not enough sleep. Tomorrow driving. Sian... more and more hate driving... Coz always got scolding hahaha....
Today forgot to buy breakfast for tomorrow. This morning cannot get up again, then never eat breakfast. Gastric getting more and more obvious. But really nothing to eat leh... and no time... I always get up late. Haiz... Got to start planning for my breakfast weekly le... gastric is killing me...
"Sometimes it seems no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?"
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9:00 PM
Today is a terrible day. Had a bad tiff with kel. I make everyone so unhappy and troublesome. I really feel bad about it. But I really cannot control myself. I dunno why I wanna make everyone so unhappy. Haiz.. I can't stand myself... send me to the mental hospital...
Today jx and me had a good talk about kel. Well, all the things I told him, he also got nothing to comment on. Maybe he also agree with me, and he understand why I am angry. But he told me he'll talk to kel, but in the end I repeat the same old thing to kel again, as he came to look for me. Waste my saliver, got no voice after all the nagging. Been a bad day today. However, after today, after what I really told kel my feelings, I felt so so so much lighter Maybe because I've let out all my feelings. Hehe...
Bought a 50 pieces CD-R today. Got a very very big lesson already. That is, you must back up your files once in a while, if not you'll die if your hard disk crash. I hate to format com. Argghhh... So now I'm backing up everything hahah...
Well got to sleep soon. been crying too much lately... so tired....tata....
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12:35 AM
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Haiz... Sometimes it really makes me so upset lor... Sometimes P promise me thing then nv keep promise, very sickening one lor. I dunno why P become lidat. The feeling sucks really. I took one whole day to think of it. Saddening... I am really sad. This is not what I want. I can't describe my feelings now... who can I talk to? SUCKS ENTIRELY. I am tired... I wish it could start all over again... Haiz too late. Something is wrong, but P doesn't realise it. Talk to P also no use, P dun understand. P dun understand me more and more.
I love my family, but sometimes the things they do I really can't take it. I wanted to tell her not to do that thing, but I dunno how to phrase it, wait she angry me how? She'll show me a black face everyday. But if I dun tell, she'll ruin my future lor. It's half ruin now. I am so sick of it. Not only her, even him also. But I trust him, so I won't say a single thing. But HE dun trust HIM, so what should I do? I'm like a sandwich. I hate it. I wish I could let go of everything and stop bothering. This is not what I want. However, I'll find a way to talk to her. I promise........ Haiz..... I wish I am still a kid.
Maybe I'm the sickening person after all... well I sucks too.....
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12:43 PM